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4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
A while back (I think about a month ago) prior to my emotional nature I told everybody I would leave the site forever and never come back. This of course was a lie, as I would come back to form my most recent account known as Electrolance.

A good sum of you were pretty annoyed that I resorted to such irreverent and disruptive behavior, one that resembles that of a troll in such a way that makes people feel resentful towards me as a character. I perfectly understand that. I have been aggressive and annoying many times in the site before, and though some of you might be inclined to defend said actions, some of which that have occurred took place in PM's, which of course limits your ability to understandthat I can truly be very toxic.

I am not naming names, but there was one person I attacked about 2 weeks ago, and it was inexcusable. I was so pissed off from all of the emotional pain that I faced that I felt the need to harass and troll a member for fun and to make myself feel better. I truly sunk down to low levels at that point. I am no better than the people I have criticized for being toxic members, if not worse.

There was another member I attacked, and I won't name this person either, but I did bother them as well. Now, this action was more akin to trolling than harassment, but it still was an attempt to troll a member, which IS indeed toxic to this community.

So even though this is an apology to community, the main focus of the thread is on the people I attacked, which on my part, was entirely my fault and completely unnecessary.

Also, I am not calling myself the "worst member on the site" (because believe me I used to do that every time I went through these types of situations.) I am just saying that what I did was wrong, and I shouldn'thave done so.

There are many others I bothered just for the sake of trolling, and I can't individually apologize to everyone, so I will just say to any people I have annoyed, I am sorry.

I figure that maybe I should take a break from all of this forum drama. I need to go back to debating more often. It's what I originally came here for, I want to give it another shot.

Case in point: I am sorry that I was annoying as Electrolance, and any other member that somebody found me annoying as.

As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.
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4/26/2016 2:48:19 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
I'm glad that you're alive.
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4/26/2016 3:00:34 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
*hugs* You are a good person, a worthwhile member, and someone who it was nice to talk to on the site.
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4/26/2016 3:01:01 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:

Glad to see you back, in this form, being open and honest.

I'm glad you're alive, also. Suicide isn't something to be taken lightly.

Also, there are people who do care about you here (I, for one, enjoyed debating you and talking with you). Don't be discouraged. :)
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4/26/2016 3:03:36 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:51:19 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
At 4/26/2016 2:48:19 AM, lannan13 wrote:
I'm glad that you're alive.

Thanks

Welcome.
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4/26/2016 3:54:22 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 3:00:34 AM, bsh1 wrote:
*hugs* You are a good person, a worthwhile member, and someone who it was nice to talk to on the site.

+1
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4/26/2016 4:29:24 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
I just went the route of excising all emotion. The Kolinahr http://memory-alpha.wikia.com... worked wonders for me. Emotions suck. Of course, not being vulcan it just made me INTP.

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4/26/2016 5:16:25 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
A while back (I think about a month ago) prior to my emotional nature I told everybody I would leave the site forever and never come back. This of course was a lie, as I would come back to form my most recent account known as Electrolance.

A good sum of you were pretty annoyed that I resorted to such irreverent and disruptive behavior, one that resembles that of a troll in such a way that makes people feel resentful towards me as a character. I perfectly understand that. I have been aggressive and annoying many times in the site before, and though some of you might be inclined to defend said actions, some of which that have occurred took place in PM's, which of course limits your ability to understandthat I can truly be very toxic.

I am not naming names, but there was one person I attacked about 2 weeks ago, and it was inexcusable. I was so pissed off from all of the emotional pain that I faced that I felt the need to harass and troll a member for fun and to make myself feel better. I truly sunk down to low levels at that point. I am no better than the people I have criticized for being toxic members, if not worse.

There was another member I attacked, and I won't name this person either, but I did bother them as well. Now, this action was more akin to trolling than harassment, but it still was an attempt to troll a member, which IS indeed toxic to this community.

So even though this is an apology to community, the main focus of the thread is on the people I attacked, which on my part, was entirely my fault and completely unnecessary.

Also, I am not calling myself the "worst member on the site" (because believe me I used to do that every time I went through these types of situations.) I am just saying that what I did was wrong, and I shouldn'thave done so.

There are many others I bothered just for the sake of trolling, and I can't individually apologize to everyone, so I will just say to any people I have annoyed, I am sorry.

I figure that maybe I should take a break from all of this forum drama. I need to go back to debating more often. It's what I originally came here for, I want to give it another shot.

Case in point: I am sorry that I was annoying as Electrolance, and any other member that somebody found me annoying as.

As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

Several months ago, a kid at my school killed himself by slicing his wrists. His family didn't deserve to be reminded of mortality in such a way and neither does your family.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.

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4/26/2016 2:06:39 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

I'm glad that you managed to stop yourself.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

No worries. It's the communities job to help you get through these times. If you are ever feeling suicidal or just upset feel free to PM me again, I'm always open to talk.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Given what you've been through recently I feel like a break is a good idea, just to get yourself into the right mindset - and yeah, debating can help you to do that too.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.

Nobody should criticize you in this thread and if they do then they are incredibly stupid and will most likely get on the bad side of a lot of members for doing so.
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4/26/2016 2:08:29 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
Hey, you had the courage to come back and apologize. That's more than many other people can do. You're okay in my book, Blazro. Good to see you back.
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4/26/2016 2:10:18 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
*hugs* glad to see you again, and glad you're still around. PM me if you ever need to talk.
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4/26/2016 2:49:49 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
A while back (I think about a month ago) prior to my emotional nature I told everybody I would leave the site forever and never come back. This of course was a lie, as I would come back to form my most recent account known as Electrolance.

A good sum of you were pretty annoyed that I resorted to such irreverent and disruptive behavior, one that resembles that of a troll in such a way that makes people feel resentful towards me as a character. I perfectly understand that. I have been aggressive and annoying many times in the site before, and though some of you might be inclined to defend said actions, some of which that have occurred took place in PM's, which of course limits your ability to understandthat I can truly be very toxic.

I am not naming names, but there was one person I attacked about 2 weeks ago, and it was inexcusable. I was so pissed off from all of the emotional pain that I faced that I felt the need to harass and troll a member for fun and to make myself feel better. I truly sunk down to low levels at that point. I am no better than the people I have criticized for being toxic members, if not worse.

There was another member I attacked, and I won't name this person either, but I did bother them as well. Now, this action was more akin to trolling than harassment, but it still was an attempt to troll a member, which IS indeed toxic to this community.

So even though this is an apology to community, the main focus of the thread is on the people I attacked, which on my part, was entirely my fault and completely unnecessary.

Also, I am not calling myself the "worst member on the site" (because believe me I used to do that every time I went through these types of situations.) I am just saying that what I did was wrong, and I shouldn'thave done so.

There are many others I bothered just for the sake of trolling, and I can't individually apologize to everyone, so I will just say to any people I have annoyed, I am sorry.

I figure that maybe I should take a break from all of this forum drama. I need to go back to debating more often. It's what I originally came here for, I want to give it another shot.

Case in point: I am sorry that I was annoying as Electrolance, and any other member that somebody found me annoying as.

As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.

As it has been said in this thread, facing issues takes some courage. Returning to your previous account, and fessing-up is a great start - a mature action to be sure.

People forgive much more easily than you may think, and they will when you are most honest about anything you have said or done.
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4/26/2016 6:56:58 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:06:39 PM, famousdebater wrote:
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

I'm glad that you managed to stop yourself.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

No worries. It's the communities job to help you get through these times. If you are ever feeling suicidal or just upset feel free to PM me again, I'm always open to talk.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Given what you've been through recently I feel like a break is a good idea, just to get yourself into the right mindset - and yeah, debating can help you to do that too.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.

Nobody should criticize you in this thread and if they do then they are incredibly stupid and will most likely get on the bad side of a lot of members for doing so.

The members that I harassed can.
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4/26/2016 6:58:03 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 6:56:58 PM, BlazingRodent wrote:
The members that I harassed can.

The shouldn't do it in this thread. They can discuss it with you privately but this isn't the place for them to do so.
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4/27/2016 12:12:37 AM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/26/2016 2:46:17 AM, BlazingRodent wrote:
A while back (I think about a month ago) prior to my emotional nature I told everybody I would leave the site forever and never come back. This of course was a lie, as I would come back to form my most recent account known as Electrolance.

A good sum of you were pretty annoyed that I resorted to such irreverent and disruptive behavior, one that resembles that of a troll in such a way that makes people feel resentful towards me as a character. I perfectly understand that. I have been aggressive and annoying many times in the site before, and though some of you might be inclined to defend said actions, some of which that have occurred took place in PM's, which of course limits your ability to understandthat I can truly be very toxic.

I am not naming names, but there was one person I attacked about 2 weeks ago, and it was inexcusable. I was so pissed off from all of the emotional pain that I faced that I felt the need to harass and troll a member for fun and to make myself feel better. I truly sunk down to low levels at that point. I am no better than the people I have criticized for being toxic members, if not worse.

There was another member I attacked, and I won't name this person either, but I did bother them as well. Now, this action was more akin to trolling than harassment, but it still was an attempt to troll a member, which IS indeed toxic to this community.

So even though this is an apology to community, the main focus of the thread is on the people I attacked, which on my part, was entirely my fault and completely unnecessary.

Also, I am not calling myself the "worst member on the site" (because believe me I used to do that every time I went through these types of situations.) I am just saying that what I did was wrong, and I shouldn'thave done so.

There are many others I bothered just for the sake of trolling, and I can't individually apologize to everyone, so I will just say to any people I have annoyed, I am sorry.

I figure that maybe I should take a break from all of this forum drama. I need to go back to debating more often. It's what I originally came here for, I want to give it another shot.

Case in point: I am sorry that I was annoying as Electrolance, and any other member that somebody found me annoying as.

As for a separate issue, I told a bunch of members I was going to commit suicide, and to be honest with you all, I did try to legitimately kill myself a few days ago, but luckily I was able to stop myself once it got to hurt too much.

That wasn't very good of me either. Considering that I am going through many obstacles, killing myself is just counterproductive and I am sorry if that scared or annoyed anybody.

Once again, I think I should take a break from the forums. I have real life problems to deal with, but as for DDO, it would be wise for me to come here for what the purpose of the entire site is, and what I have wanted to do when I came here, debate.

Note: I want get hurt if anyone is still mad at me or criticizes me in this thread.

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4/27/2016 12:23:58 AM
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In all seriousness, though, I'm interested to know that could be so bad as to drive you to attempt suicide.
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4/27/2016 9:09:43 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/27/2016 4:21:14 AM, armoredcat wrote:
You've gone through a lot. I applaud you for being so honest and humble.

Who are you?
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4/27/2016 9:38:24 PM
Posted: 7 months ago
At 4/27/2016 9:09:43 PM, BlazingRodent wrote:
At 4/27/2016 4:21:14 AM, armoredcat wrote:
You've gone through a lot. I applaud you for being so honest and humble.

Who are you?

A new user. I just felt as if you've done the right thing by posting this and apologizing.
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