A few reasons for this:
1. I am constantly having dialogues in my head as though there are more than one of "me" up there (once again, whatever that means). I call myself "man" in my thoughts and think stuff like "nah, I don't think that's a good idea man", and stuff like that.
2. I am constantly disagreeing with "myself". When I was struggling to quit weed a couple of months ago, there was a constant battle in my head that played out like a couple of toddlers arguing over toys. An example:
A: I want some bongs.
B: But you can't have any because of the p*ss test.
A: Yeah, but that's a few weeks away, I'll drink bulk water and exercise bulk and should be right.
B: I doubt that, it sometimes takes up to a few months.
A: I want bongs.
If weed isn't your thing, consider any conflicting thoughts you have (food you continue to eat despite telling "yourself" you shouldn't be, etc.) and ask yourself why one mind would be so conflicted about something you KNOW to be true. "I" know that I wouldn't have passed a p*ss test in such a short amount of time, but "I" thought I might be able to get away with it, until "I" talked some sense into "myself".
3. Consider being "of two minds" about something or "changing your mind". Like, don't you ever just sit there and talk to yourself in your mind (I hope so or I must be f*cked up lol). How can this possibly be unless there are more than one mind in our brain? How can something (a mind) think to itself, and then rebut?
Reading back over this now, I know it's not going to make much sense to those reading it, and I welcome all insults as much as insights. I know what I mean but am finding it hard to put into words.
"Let me tell you the truth. The truth is, 'what is'. And 'what should be' is a fantasy, a terrible terrible lie that someone gave to the people long ago. The 'what should be' never did exist, but people keep trying to live up to it. There is no 'what should be,' there is only what is."
Lenny Bruce
Lenny Bruce







