All throughout my childhood I always wanted to do sports like basketball and I wanted to dance. My family never let me do dance or gymnastics like I wanted to. I played basketball in 2nd grade but was so bad that they never played me in games. In 7th grade I played volleyball and I wasn't terrible I'd say I was decent but all the other girls had years of experience so I never got played. I tried out in 8th grade but had family things over Christmas break and got kicked off. High school is the main thing i'd like to redo. I was in color guard for 3 years and it got in the way of soooo many things. I couldn't do volleyball at all in high school because of color guard and I really wanted to. I also signed up to do student council for my sophomore year but didn't try hard enough to get enough signatures to be in it. If I could've done those things I would've been able to make something of myself in high school. I could've been somebody you know? But I didn't. My freshman and sophomore year I was in my "emo phase" so everyone knew me as the weird emo kid and I was always the person that people were only nice to if they had to. Whenever someone is nice to me it still seems really forced. My junior year I realized it was time to change if I planned on making some friends so I started listening to strictly rap and rap music and trying to be friends with the ghetto kids so I could seem cool. It didn't work I still always was looked as "her" like the weird kid everyone felt bad for but didn't care enough to actually do anything. I should add that I still was in color guard so volleyball was still out. I didn't get a prom date and both the groups I asked to be in ditched me last minute. Now I'm siting here, a senior who quit color guard and just realizing that I basically ruined my reputation. My name is never said without a negative context. Nobody really likes me. I just fade into the background. I wanted to be somebody. I wanted to find a high school sweetheart. I just wanted to be liked. But now it's too late and none of that is going to happen. I've never gotten asked to a dance. I've never even had my first kiss or held hands with someone. I don't want to tell my kids about me in high school because they would be heartbroken. So yes I would change it all if I could.
I think about this all the time. Yes, I'm aware of the butterfly effect and all of that... But I am not yet old enough that I have much to loose. I love my parents and my sibling, but nothing I could do would prevent their birth since they're all older. Yes, I love my friends and I know life could be a lot worse, but I regret a lot of things I did when I was younger (sticking with those girls I used to call friends, for instance). If I could keep my memories, I would be able to do well in school effortlessly, spend more time learning good life skills, and actually spend time with my best friends instead of neglecting them to be with the 'cool kids'. And maybe I wouldn't stay in the closet for so long, either.
What i'm saying is not reincarnation but my theory is technically depending on how we die,and there is a heaven and hell and if you don't believe that that's fine but listen anyways, think about your personal heaven(the greatest thing that you could possibly imagine that would happen to you.) and then think about your personal hell(find your deepest(so deep that you don't know what it is) darkest fear is. And then 1,000,000,000,000,000(1 Quadrillion ) times worst. And that what your personal hell would be like. And the only correct religion is christianity by the way and read my entire life story at mylifestorytrueandcontroversial.Blogspot.Com and i don't give a care if it's too long, I still expect you to read my life story considering it's from when i was age 4 up until 2015. And I don't give a care if it's too long for you to read, oh boohoo, boohoo, do you want me to call the wahmbulance because my lifestory that is 100% true is too long for you to read oh booohoo, yourself.
This is a thought i have often. I would give or do anything to have a second chance to go back to when I was a teenager or even younger to undo all of my mistakes and seize missed opportunities. I could have done so much more if i had not been so scared and self-conscious. I feel like my entire life has been a waste. But I would only want to go back if I could know everything then I know now.
I only know about hypnotism through movies, but, if true, wouldn't you be able to go back to a young age through your memories? This is how I picture it...I'm on my death bed, I have a hypnotist send me back to age 2, maybe to the first memory I have, and I relive my life from that point. I think it may go on like that forever, until I eventually die, but so what? I'm on my death bed. I just wonder how many times, I could relive my life before I actually die. Just something I think about...
If I had a second chance to relive my life. I would be happy to take this chance. The reason why is because I would be able to work hard and build a good future for myself and been able to keep my school friends close to me and my parents were successful with their job and my brother is able to go to reading boys. And I would keep my 3 special friends, with me forever and been able to keep my ex-boyfriend forever. But I would not make any changes to my self apart from keeping myself slim and healthy and I would keep my Asperger's syndrome because it makes me unique from the others
It takes a whole life to learn how to live, so if I can live again - preferably as the same person I am now - it is like I get a chance to implement what I've learned without making those stupid mistakes I did while learning how to live. Of course if I will not remember anything from the previous life it will not be as good as with all the memories from this life.
I would go back in time to become a hawk. Having all that freedom and power! I would just...Swoop down and WRENCH the life from some worthless mouse, then eat him up. That's the life for me. Picking up creatures smaller than me and dropping them from great heights...
If I had the option to relive my life, and I could be whatever I wanted to be, I would go back in time and live in Equestria as a pure, warm-bodied all Equestrian alicorn stallion. Because I believe that's exactly who I'm meant to be, young and great forever and learning things at my own pace, but I think I'd keep my autism, because it is the thing that makes me special, and in a special life, it would probably be the thing I'd depend on the most.
Doing things over and making better decisions could have some very positive results. I may be able to change my career path, prevent painful or bad events in my life or prevent myself from hurting someone. But what if one little change caused enough things to change and my children are never born. There is nothing I could gain that could ever make it worth the risk of the 2 best parts of my life. Any pain I endured in the past Is a pain I would gladly keep to protect the only things that truly mater.