The support system that is team internet Without my laptop and the internet, I doubt I would be alive to be typing this. The internet is filled with brilliant people who are going through exactly what I am. I hardly use the internet for information, although it is a brilliant source of knowledge, the internet is my support system. I am constantly on my laptop because my internet friends are the reason I haven't taken action on the..."darker" thoughts I have to deal with. I am considered a freak in real life, I am the bad different in real life. The only people who understand me have only ever talked to me through the device I type this out on. I know, many people will say in response, "How do you know they are who they say they are? What if they are creepy old stalkers?" and in response I say, "There are simply some things you don't make up. These people are real because I call them when I feel my arms itch for a blade and they talk me down from it. These people are real because if they aren't, then no one cares." My internet friends are my closest friends. They understand me. I can ask the internet anything and everything, without fear of being judged. When I was figuring out my sexuality, the internet was my biggest asset. You can't simply ask, "What does it mean to be bisexual? How do I know?" because in my reality, that isn't normal or socially acceptable. Without the internet, I don't know where I would be. Who I would call when Im feeling less than okay? The internet truly is a support system. I care for my internet friends, and they care for me. It is that simple. My grandmother says, "The internet is built for those who lie and those who believe those lies." but grandma, the internet is the only place I can be honest. I constantly censor myself and it is breaking me. The internet is the only place I know where "How are you?" is not a greeting. The internet is the only place I know where "How are you?" means something.